Shoots & Latters

On the Jukebox: "Against the Wind" by Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band
Mood: Pensive
Idiom: Slippery Slopes
Flair: Trust

Today I've been thinking about slippery slopes in my life. You know, those precarious situations that often lead to eventual disaster. It doesn't matter how careful you are, sometimes such obstacles will lay in your path. It's part of life's journey. It's the approach you take to them that show your true character. Lately my path feels as though its covered in a perpetual sheet of ice and the wind is blowing hard. It makes me thankful to have the iron rod to hold onto.

I've been making great progress on ED Book 2 and that brings me satisfaction. Yet, I wonder if I should be doing something else with my time - like bringing in a paycheck somehow. I have complete faith and confidence that when my ED series is published it will be successful and it will make up for the fact that I've been living on Top Ramen for the last few month. I can't say that I'm a starving artist, just one that craves gourmet meals.

What does this have to do with slippery slopes and choices? Well, my line of thinking is this: If I get a 'real job' I'll be drained of all creativity and joy (learned this from past experience)and will not get around to finishing my books. If I continue to ignore our finances and continue to write all day long, we might get into debt. So far we've been careful and there has been balance, but I sense that I'm teetering on the brink of disaster BUT which is it? Loss of financial security or loss of creative freedom? There isn't a middle ground in this scenario.

I tell myself to keep going. Keep writing because it makes me so happy and that it will pay off eventually. I would feel empty if at the end of my life all I had to show for it was a 401K. If my stories died with me that would be sad - maybe not a huge loss for humanity in general, but like burying the one talent the master entrusted to me and having him take it back because I was a slothful servant.

Everyone has ups and downs in life's journey so I know I'm not alone. I've had some set backs lately but the game isn't over yet. I'm heading forward in the direction of my dreams. Onward and upward!